Deep from within
Poetry is a state of being, layered like an onion, peeled back till you reach the core and discover that there is no core but another layer which you peel back and the fleshy layers perspire a pungent aromatic stickiness - soul blood. Once you truly open a poem or are open to a poem – its soul blood remains with you.
Poetry is a state of becoming. Each poem that you read changes once you have taken it in. It mutates, surfacing when you need it most, like a genii.
Poetry is dreamtime, when waking and sleeping cross over into each other’s territories and a new reality emerges and reveals itself, glowing in the dark in such a manner that dark and light are one, fusing thought, image and emotion into words.
Lone poems seldom happen to me. More often, they arrive in twos and threes, in a series, one closely following on the heels of the other, as a necklace, a chain, a rosary, one after another. It takes me time to open the hidden vault to let them out – but when I do, I must let every one of them out.
Some emerge like swifts and vanish into the blue, others like gusts of cool breeze. Some are bubbles floating out – hovering then swinging away, others are gypsies who set off on their own journeys and do not turn back (there’s an old Narikuravar Gypsy belief – you turn back and you’ll dissolve as morning dew does on the grass as the sun comes out). Others are survivors from death camps, their eyes still floating in pools of dreams. The list is endless. But once they are out, I let them stand for themselves, to mean for themselves, to be reborn in the lives of those who read them.
Having said this, I must also add… sometimes my poems are attached to each other – heads joined, hearts joined, limbs joined, eyes joined, one growing out of the other.
All my poems are one poem. One prayer. One sound. Deep from within. From the abyss. From the space that is the womb of the volcano. The breath of the void.
I want my poems to touch you quietly, when you are vulnerable, alone among crowds and streets and the noise of friendship; alone, suspended in a bubble of waiting, to enter in through the pores of your senses - flowing along with the gentle tide of a nubile river till they find their way to your lungs, to your heart, to your liver, to your spleen, to your stomach, to your womb, permeating every organ imperceptibly, till they fill you – your capillaries, your breath and the ripeness of your sex; fill you till you swell and rise in the night air and float away over rooftops beyond your city to faraway places where names, faces and addresses do not exist and your friendship finds the warmth of another and your longing discovers the cherryness of completion and your spirit dissolves in the clarity of a pure dawn.
I would often wonder where each poem I write is taking me (in terms of evolution of my spirit). I now realise that a creative act is actually a precious gifting of one’s self to the universe. Till one day there is nothing left to gift and I am free and “light”.
My poetry is a vegetable market. Coloured peppers piled high, reds yellows greens, pouring on to firm flowers of broccoli beside smooth bellies of gourds, set into a jewelled array of farm words, fresh flesh of flavours wrapped in textured skin still fragrant with the earth…born from an earth-heart watered by rivers and streams, rain mist and the tenderness of sun kisses.
My poetry is the narrow lane that leads from the brass noise of the city to its pulse source, the vegetable market, snake winding with scales of steaming teashops and snack bars and cobbler corners and ancient tailor stalls that have bred generations of master cutters and traditional healers with their magic potions, beggars and urchins, dogs, cats, pigs, perfumeries and rats as big as cats emerging at dead of night (when the night is absolutely dead, breathless and exhausted) and flower women heaving used breasts in the shadows and painted boys jingling their trinkets out of passing car windows.
My poetry is the dusty road that leads out of the city to hills scabbed with desolate forts of forgotten warriors and crested larks rise from scrub slopes into the lemon air alive with the bleat of goats and the fluted voices of children back from school. A family of rain quails cross down from the wooded slopes to my left over to the valley on my right and disappear, leaving behind footprints only I can feel.
My poetry celebrates departures and arrivals, losings and findings, wakings and sleepings, wanderings down the dusty road that leads out of the city that lies like a volcanic wound, throbbing then sinking then rising and overflowing.
My poetry is the view from atop the hills that looks down into the valley where the road freewheels out of the city, gasping with freedom. It follows the clouds of dust back to the pulse source of its brass noise, down the narrow lane lined by tailors, healers, beggars, urchins, rats, pigs, dogs, cats and the night that breathes flowered women and painted boys. It wanders among the aubergines and custard apples till it reaches the dark heart of dreaming asparagus and artichokes.
My poetry rises from the butcher’s altar into the air like a pariah kite, wingtips curving and swirling till it catches a thermal and floats beyond…beyond the city the road out of the city, out of the hills, feathers exploding into the blue. Finally free.